I met with a fertility specialist and let me tell you… I was so emotional. It is scary hearing all the things that are going against you.
The staff there is so warm and welcoming. I went in to see the Doctor and he was very impressive. I was very comfortable and pleased with his knowledge. I finally feel like I will find out what is wrong with me.
… “Let’s cross that bridge when we get there”…
Despite his best attempt to keep me from worrying, I couldn’t contain my emotions and just began crying. It was just an initial consultation but for some reason I just feel like I am in good hands. Finally a doctor that actually is taking the time to get me answers. He assured me that we can find all the options regardless.
I went home and cried my eyes out. I acknowledged my emotions and allowed myself to release the fear inside of me. I have wanted to be a mother all my life. Anyone who really knows me can tell you that this has been my dream. I cried for my fear of not being able to get pregnant, birth a child, give my husband a child… I cried selfishly.
I know in my heart regardless if I birth a child or not or we adopt I will love that baby with every ounce of my being… yet I cried selfishly and you know what that is ok!
My husband came home and held me and supported me so wonderfully.
I decided that tomorrow is a new day. I will not spend my time on yesterday’s sorrows or tomorrow’s worries. Today is for today. Might as well make it a good one. Positivity is a lifestyle!